Sunday, July 30, 2006
You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mind
I'm sleeping next to you
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don't know..
Oh, don't turn around and say bye again
Yea it crushes my head when you call me your friend
No I can't find the words cause I lost them the minute
They fell out my mouth and it's love and I'm in it
So give me your lips and just let me kiss 'em
I just wish there was so much more than that
About you and me
1:18 PM
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Imagine Me & YouWhat happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object?
It never happens.
If there's a thing that can't be stopped, it's not possible to have something else that can't be moved. And vice versa. They can't exist together.
It's a trick question.
You know, I wanted you to be happy.
More than anything else, I wanted to be that cause of your happiness.
But if I'm not, then I can't stand in the way.
Because what you're feeling now, is the unstoppable force
Which means that I've got to move."We don't know, you can never be sure. But you take the plunge anyway. Sure is for people who don't love enough."
1:01 PM
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Done.
Whatever you may say or think.
Out of this box and liberated.
This is enough.
This is it.
Goodbye.
2:56 PM
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Hatred begets hatred.
The best source of escape
The barrier the ephemerally burns down all emotional daggers
Enough to get me through
I may not given an immaculate friendship
But I try to give a maximum fair
Deem me as you may
Imperfect and only me
You, you nor you
My life does not need
7:24 PM
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
The ending to our movie
See the neverending films roll to an end
The camera crew packing up
Everyone leaving the scenes
This is the end
Why is it I don't wish to leave
Time be still,
Static you shall be
Stay with me
Close to feel my pulsations
As we share one breath
I'll die in this memory
12:15 AM
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Home feels so empty.
Never felt that way before.
I miss you.
Maybe it'll be better when Mom comes home.
Still, you're not around.
I miss you.
Never thought it'd be this hard.
Anticipating December.
Very much.
2:05 AM
Monday, July 10, 2006
Family Love.When We Don't Fight (:
The Formally Dressed.
Columbian Tycoon and Family.
The Exemplar Of Sibling Rivalry.
The Otherwise, Refined.
The Ladies. (:
1:10 AM
Haha I just had a blast playing Minesweeper Flags and all those MSN games with the Lu Sisters. Lu Yawen, Lu Yiwen, Lu Yanwen. My favourite is still Yanwen even though her convo with me was mostly made up. Brats. HAHA.
And I stayed over at Sam's again last night. Doing nothing, whining to each other, and not being able to wake up for the soccer match again. ALWAYS. Haha but I always have a helluva time at her place. Thanks Sam! and thank your parents for me too. (:
I went for an overly-priced family photo taking session yesterday. Turned my grouchiness around. Felt nice having the whole family do something together, laughing it off, and Dad doesn't have the chance to nag/scold/whateve. Pictures turned out rather fine. Dad looked like a Columbian Drug Dealer, Mom looked like a Courtesan, Sis looked like some sort of model, Bro looked like esplanade/statue of liberty/durian (HAHAHA) and I looked like some korean actor. SHIOK RIGHT. Will upload when I have access to the com.
And I finally met my nephew Denzyl on Friday. He's only 2 months old and OMG HE'S SO CUTE. I bet Jolene will agree with me. Haha. I will upload his picture soon too.
GO GO ITALIA!!!
12:07 AM
Sunday, July 09, 2006
There's a distinct difference between melancholy and angst.
Read carefully, dears.
Dejection is not what you should be interpreting. (:
12:51 AM
Thursday, July 06, 2006
I've never really belonged there anyway.So Sis is leaving next week for Perth.
I wish so badly I could leave with her.
Just get away from everything here.
There's pretty much nothing left for me here anyway.
Not that I'm not doing well, I have all that counts,
I just dread facing detestable familiarities.
I can't wait for next year.
Really.
Live with Sam in Sydney or Sis in Perth
Or maybe just venture out a new life on my own.
With Sis gone, I've one less person who genuinely cares about my existence.
(Pardon me, but all others pls fuck yourselves up your asses and leave, die, whateve. Thanks.)This farewell party made me realise I've only got a week left with her, and I honestly abhor every ounce of that dreadful feeling.
I'll miss her so much.
Too much. :(
11:29 PM
